March 11, 2014
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I am going to step right in it.

It’s unavoidable. It’s inevitable. It’s mandatory. It’s practically the only way the process truly works.

Over and over people come to therapy hoping that this will be the one relationship where I won’t ever do the one, awful, terrible, hurtful, intolerable thing that everyone else has always done to them.

And then I do it. Or something kind of like it, or something only a very little like the terrible thing, but similar enough to bring it all back in a flash and make you feel the darkest déjà vu: “It’s happening AGAIN.”

I will be late, or forget your partner’s name, or double-book, or lose an e-mail, or push too hard, or seem preoccupied, or be masking a dip in my own personal energy, or be over-protective, or have a “tone” in my voice, or misunderstand, or misconstrue, or f-up.

And you will be absolutely sure that it’s proof that I don’t care, don’t value you, that I am crazy, or just like your ex-wife, or your father, or that I am too fragile, depressed, not keeping up, or that I left you – or am about to leave you – alone.

Sometimes it will happen right away, sometimes not for a few weeks, or even years.

But – inevitably – I will do it.

If I don’t, we probably aren’t connecting. We aren’t approaching the realm of intimacy. The terrible, messy, liberating sacred zone where your unconscious Self pulls on mine – and we slip, momentarily, into the black hole of our core conflicts.

Sounds like fun doesn’t it?

But that’s how it works. Really.

We all repeat patterns in our relationships, and the therapeutic relationship – although unique, with important parameters – is still a relationship. As we fall into our favorite tried-and-true dance steps, we all pull and lead our partners to fall in line. Even if we want to learn new steps – even if we want to quit dancing altogether – the old rhythms return.

So, whatever it is you want to break free from, we should expect it to happen, watch for it to happen. And when it does – that is our moment to strike! We can see it happening, live, in vivo, in our laboratory. If we can catch it, we can deconstruct it, we can explore what was at play, assign language to it for the first time, or rewrite the narrative, we can transform it, re-work it, create a new experience.

But, I will step in it. If you stay long enough, and want more from the process than some company while you wait out a disruptive brief crisis, I always do.

And so will everyone you ever love.

The road to all intimacy leads straight through the deepest hole of our worst fears and crashes smack into our darkest core conflict.

Lets not hope that it won’t happen. Lets hope that it does.

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Martha Crawford, What a Shrink Thinks: “Enactment” (via psychotherapy)

February 1, 2014
"You get a strange feeling when you’re about to leave a place. Like you’ll not only miss the people you love but you’ll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you’ll never be this way ever again."

Azar Nafisi (via vacants)

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January 26, 2014
"For years mental health professionals taught people that they could be psychologically healthy without social support, that “unless you love yourself, no one else will love you.”…The truth is, you cannot love yourself unless you have been loved and are loved. The capacity to love cannot be built in isolation"

— Bruce D. Perry, M.D., Ph.D. — “The Boy Who Was Raised As A Dog” (via verthandi)

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January 23, 2014

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October 28, 2013

(1) President Abraham Lincoln, who had depression
(2) Writer Virginia Woolf, who had bipolar disorder
(3) Artist Vincent Van Gogh, who had bipolar disorder
(4) Writer Sylvia Plath, who had depression
(5) Mathematician John Nash (from A Brilliant Mind), who had schizophrenia

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October 4, 2013
"In winter I think spring will be my salvation, and in summer I think autumn, and in autumn winter, it is always the same, I hope from one season to the next."

— Thomas Bernhard   (via mercurieux)

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August 15, 2013
explore-blog:

Instant perspective: How big the moon really is. Pair with these masterful visualizations illustrating the scale of the universe and this animated explanation of how we actually measure it.

explore-blog:

Instant perspective: How big the moon really is. Pair with these masterful visualizations illustrating the scale of the universe and this animated explanation of how we actually measure it.

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August 14, 2013
homo-online:







HOMO MAGAZINE








My high school!

homo-online:

My high school!

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August 2, 2013

majormitchmajor:

I wish.

Take me home

July 29, 2013
"Everybody has a secret world inside of them. I mean everybody. All of the people in the whole world, I mean everybody — no matter how dull and boring they are on the outside. Inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds… Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands, maybe."

Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol. 5: A Game of You (via tobia)

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